As many of you know, it's me and me baBESTer's one month! Happy one month to us baby! It's been a long, long way. I know it's only a month, but so much has happened before that as well. We only made it official so people would hop off out case and stop saying 'why don't you guys just go out' or 'you guys aren't going out? wth?' OH SHUT UP! Who cares if we weren't going out when we were acting like boyfriend and girlfriend. Like really? Does it really matter about the date? Does it matter if we were official or not? No, it doesn't. What matters if the couple is sincere and they love eachother. But we made it official anyways, because we were waiting for this moment for so long, we couldn't wait any longer.
Anyways, life has been rough, for everyone. I know that for a fact because no ones life is easy. I've come to understand that EVERYONE has problems, whether they like it or not. It may be small problems, or it may be big problems. Maybe you don't like doing chores at home, or for others, not even feeling the love at home with your family.

"A house is just a house, until you gather the people you love in there to call it your home. "

Trust me, looks can be deceiving. Many people you know, may think that your life is perfect. But its not. People take one look at you, and when you smile, they think your life is absolutely amazing. They think that you're always happy, and you don't have any problems in the world. Well the truth is.. I have many problems. I have so many things I do not like in my life, and it hurts to say that it's all my fault. It's all my fault for having a life like this. I've been so worked up about this and everyone I love is being affected by this. Robbie, Miguel, Joyce.. those are the people I care about so much right now. They've been through so much for me in this past school year, and it's not even funny how much I need to thank them. Especially Robbie. Robbie, I'm sorry for all the shit I made you go through baby. I'm truly sorry. I know you don't deserve shit like that. I know that I haven't been my total self lately. I don't know.. I guess the things that are happening in my house are effecting they way I've been acting around you. I've been down in the dumps for so long because of family. Now, I'm not gonna expose my life here, because that's so retarded, but let me tell you one thing.. looks can be deceiving. You may take one look at me and say that I am the happiest person alive, but deep down, somewhere within your soul, you're hurting. You're crying. You're in need of help and you have no where to turn to. Yeah, that's how I felt. I felt that my life is totally worthless and I don't deserve this. I don't deserve the hurting I feel in this house, and I don't deserve the amazing friends that God has given me. I don't know, I think I'm asking for too much. All I'm asking for is a good life because that's what everyone wants, true? No one wants a hard life. No one wants to cry everyday of their lives knowing that they are hurting and no one sees it. But you know what? I don't care anymore. I'm starting to see my life IS worth living for, and I do deserve all these people God has given me in my life. I earned it. I need them. I need him. Robbie Lesaca. Robbie, you're the reason why I'm still here, breathing. You're the reason why I'm still here smiling, and it ain't no fake one. You don't understand how much you make me smile. You don't understand how much I need you. You don't understand how much I love you. I love you so much. I love you, and I'd give you anything in this world to see you smiling. That's why I'm here in your life. I'm here to make you smile. I'm here to make your life worth living for. I'm here to live my life FOR you. I need you here with me, smiling because when you smile, I smile. I'm happy. I love it. I have honestly never been so happy in my life, until you came back in it once again to help me smile and grow. You helped me grow so much. If I were to look back into my life, as far as I could remember, majority of it evolves around you. You are my life. You make me smile without knowing it. I just wanna say thank you. Thank you for everything. Thank you for making me into a stronger person. You say you look up to me because you think I'm 'strong', but really, I look up to you. I look up to you because you're the reason why I'm so strong. You keep me going. You may not think it's because of you, but it's ALL about you. You should know that I wouldn't be the same person today if it weren't for you. Thank you so much. Thank you, thank you, thank you. Thank you for being you. Don't ever change. I believe you. I've always believed you. I just wanted you to prove it because I wanted to feel the love. Well guess what baby, I do. I feel the love and so much more. You showed me so much, I think I'm the imperfect one in the relationship.

A kiss is just a kiss until you find the one you love.
a hug is just a hug until you find the one your always thinking of.
a dream is just a dream until it comes true.
love was just a word until I heard it from you. ♥