Sometimes I wonder why I was given this life. I was given a life where nothing ever came easy, not one thing. I had to work for everything I wanted- including the people and things I loved. But in the end, the pain you thought would last forever fades and the happiness comes and hopefully stays for a good while. Everything happens for a reason. I have a reason to wake up in the morning and go to sleep at night with smiles on my face because of that one person who you can't stop thinking about, worrying about, loving so much. That one person who took your breath away a million times and still gives you butterflies after years of being with them. That one person who changed your life for the better. Others may not think so, but I certainly do. There's always that one person who will always have your heart, you never see it coming 'cause you're blinded from the start, know that you're that one for me, it's clear for everyone to see, my baby ♥ you will always be my boo. It's better to give than receive. It's better to give away your heart than keep it, knowing that there's someone looking for yours. God gave us two eyes, two ears, two hands, and two feet, but why did he only give us one heart? Because he's expecting us to look for the other pair. ♥ I found my other half. I found my other pair. My other life basically. It lies in the hands of Robert Nicolas Diomampo Lesaca and I'm glad it was him, and no one else. I'm glad God gave him my heart. I'm glad God gave me all these tests with Robbie. I'm glad God was able to bring him back to me in my arms for me to hold forever. I'm never letting go of this love. Sometimes I'm put in tough situations, like fighting jealousy, discouragement, and hatred from others- which is why a majority of time I'm down, or depressed, or angry with myself. I can't stop thinking about the negatives. What if they try to take you away from me? What if he gives up on me? What if he's fed up? What if he's not the one? All these questions run through my mind everyday. I know you tell me I shouldn't be thinking like this, I shouldn't be even talking about this- but you know what? It's reality. It's something I can't control. It happens. But you know what? I try to think about the positives that come with the relationships as well. Most times, the positive thoughts overpowers the negative ones. What if we lasted for a long time? What if we got married? What if we were meant to be? What if we started our family together as one? It's amazing. I love those thoughts. I would kill to have those thoughts come everyday. Unfortunately, it doesn't. But hey, me thinking about the negatives, makes me more courageous than ever. I just want to fight those feelings. I know we were meant to be. I love you. I loved you ever since I could remember. I loved you since you stole my football. I loved you since you made fun of me. I loved you since I finally got your name. I loved you ever since you took my breath away with that little 'flirtatious' comeback on msn. I loved you ever since you were my first hug. I loved you ever since you were my first kiss. I loved you ever since you gave me butterflies. I loved you ever since you were my first boyfriend. I loved you ever since I got in trouble for you. I loved you ever since we started having problems. I loved you ever since I started crying about you. I loved you ever since we started to fade. I loved you ever since you've moved on. I loved you ever since we became 'brother and sister'. I loved you ever since we became closer. I loved you ever since we stopped talking. I loved you ever since we reunited last summer. I loved you ever since school has started as a 'bestestest'. I loved you ever since you needed me to be there for you. I loved you ever since we started dealing again. I loved you ever since you asked me out on Wednesday, February 10, 2010. I loved you ever since. Point blank. I love you. Even when we have problems. Even when we have fights. Even when we yell and scream at each other. I love you. Baby don't you ever leave me. I love you, and I know you love me too. ♥ I love you, regardless. Always; til eternity ends. 'Cause that's the pinky promise we made. January 22, 2007. December 22, 2007. and now February 10, 2010. 3-4 years. And we're stronger than ever. Don't you see? You're the reason why the sun shines in my world. "I could knock Rheyanne David's lights out, and she'll still shine. She's my sunshine, she keeps my days bright, and at night she's my moon light." I love you, PLEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASE don't forget it! Always & Forever. ♥

" When I saw you I was afraid to meet you. When I met you I was afraid to kiss you. When I kissed you I was afraid to love you. Now that I love you, I am afraid to lose you. "

Don't leave, I don't think I'll be able to survive again without you.
-xo, rd ♥